What’s Wrong With Me?

SJ – I know I should eat right, exercise my body and my brain, meditate etc., but I feel like I’m standing in quicksand, going nowhere. What’s wrong with me?

Joshua- Your body suffers the condition of your mind and soul.

SJ – You mean I look like I am?

Joshua –  Exactly!

SJ – Ouch!  Have you looked at me lately? I could stand to lose a few pounds.

Joshua – How much negative energy are you carrying around?

SJ- A lot and none of it is my fault.

Joshua – Making a joke are we?

SJ – Okay some of it is, but have you seen the state of the world? Have you seen my life, the choices I made?

Joshua – Exactly! Choices you made. Remember your soul is not here just for grins, it has an agenda.  Your body is simply a vehicle for the soul to experience a wide range of emotions and to learn to come to terms with human feelings.

The gifts or talents your body inherits are used to sustain your human condition and that of your community. Your gifts reflect your soul’s agenda, the condition of your soul, and what your soul needs to do in this life experience.

SJ – So my gifts or talents are to be used for something other than a caressing of my ego?

Joshua – The way in which you choose to use or not uses these gifts is a reflection of the condition of the health of your mind; meaning how well you are able to keep your ego in check.

SJ –To get back to my soul’s agenda:  I was not quite the innocent baby I thought I was?

Joshua – Not quite, your soul brought some baggage with it: Karma from past lives; lessons it needs to learn, wrongs it needs to right etc.

There is a purpose and reason for every soul born onto this earth. It’s up to you to figure out what that is and to accomplish that goal.

Souls shop for a body just as you shop for clothes. You know what you want to spend, where you want to go in them and what function these clothes will have. Your soul chooses its parents based on the physical DNA and the environment the parents can offer in order for the soul to experience the obstacles it needs to overcome for spiritual advancement.

SJ – You mean moral issues?

Joshua – More like life lessons. In order for souls to learn from their human experience they use each other to experience different realities. Let us say in one lifetime you experienced the pain of rejection and abandonment from your father. In your next lifetime the roles may be reversed.

It is hard to understand how the soul works with the body but let me explain this to you: The soul is you. You are not your body. You are your soul. Your body is simply your vehicle. How you treat your body is a reflection of the condition of your soul. An abused body is telling you that your mind needs work; a dysfunctional mind is telling you that your soul needs work.

Respect your soul and your body will function better.

SJ – So if I want my body to be healthy I should see to the health of my soul?

Joshua – Don’t forget the mind, the three cannot be separated until the soul chooses to return to its source.

Father, Son and Holy Ghost is a metaphor for Mind, body, spirit. In man the concept of “the Trinity” is created as it is in heaven.

SJ – I feel like my personal trinity is in a constant struggle. Can I become aware of my own soul sickness and cure the body?

Joshua – The soul is in charge here. There comes a time when the soul is ready to leave the existence it was forced into. That is why it is so hard to exercise, eat well, stop smoking etc. You know better and you know what to do but the soul has its own agenda.

SJ – Are you suggesting that when the soul has had enough of the body (the body it chose) it will callously say farewell, so long, see you? Are you seriously suggesting that we are helpless in the face of the soul’s wants and needs?

Joshua – If the soul cannot get the body on the right path to accomplish the goal it has set for itself, or if it has already accomplished that goal and sees no reason to stay, then yes, it’s going home.

SJ – We can’t overcome our souls, ourselves? Willpower is not what it’s all about? I am distressed. I care about my body.

Joshua – No you don’t. It’s of little consequence to you. It must suffer the soul’s sickness so that the soul will seek healing.

SJ – So the body is letting the soul know that the soul needs help?

Joshua – Yes and I repeat this because this answer is important: Just as the three in heaven are one, so are you. Just as God, the Son and the Holy Ghost are three in one, so are you. You are mind, body and spirit.

The physical world is a choice of experiences to help you to know God and for God to know you.

SJ – So I have to use my mind to its fullest potential, exercise my body and pray or meditate for the sake of my soul. I think I’ve heard this somewhere before.

Different By Design

Joshua – You are all different by design so that you may achieve the awesome experience of unity.  You are imperfect by design so that you may enjoy the awesome experience of achievement.

SJ – So do we feel sadness by design?

Joshua – No that’s your doing.

SJ – Joy?

Joshua – That is completely up to you.

SJ – How about anger?

Joshua – Again, up to you. Why do you think you don’t feel happy all the time?

SJ – Somebody is annoying me or causing me pain.

Joshua – Because they’re different?

SJ – No because they’re annoying!

Joshua – Do you have to let them annoy you?

SJ – That’s kind of my job.

Joshua – How so?

SJ – If I’m mad, I’m inclined to set them straight.

Joshua – And you think it’s your job to set everyone straight?

SJ – Sometimes; not all the time.

Joshua – The Universe will take care of its own. So relax and take care of your own self.

SJ – That would work if everyone did that but it’s never going to happen.

Joshua – It could, if one by one you give it a try; take one step at a time.

SJ – Isn’t this what you’re doing, setting me straight?

Joshua – I am, after all, your spirit guide. Besides you asked and I’m just giving you information. As you know, I’m not human.

SJ – Please forgive my irreverence.  Did God create this situation? Did he design our imperfections; are differences?

Joshua – No you did.

SJ – Why would we do that?

Joshua – Remember you were souls first. You saw the planet and had the free will to come here.

SJ – So we’re the fallen angels?

Joshua – Not in the sense you mean. You are not devils but you did cause negative energy.

SJ – Which is the opposite of God’s positive energy?

Joshua – Correct.  When you first set foot on the planet. . .

SJ – You mean when we first had feet, ha!  Sorry, I’m being irreverent again.

Joshua – Okay when you first had feet. . .you arrived in wonderment and joy; then you felt bewilderment and fear.  Thinking that this should be the state of the world you continued with these emotions.

SJ – So how do we get out of this mess we’ve created?

Joshua – As a whole you all like it here so you and the planet are not going anywhere for a while. But as individuals you can choose to not return to the physical world, in physical form.

SJ – How?

Joshua – You do this by growing spiritually while you are still in human form.

SJ – So that we don’t have to come back again and again?

Joshua – Eventually your soul will be so saturated with positive energy you will choose to stay in spirit form for eternity; at least until you decide to give it another go, just for fun.

SJ – Can’t we just choose to stay in spirit form?

Joshua – No. You have to earn your way to God.

SJ – Just like all the religious leaders tell us.

Joshua – Yes, but that’s another discussion. I think we’ve covered enough for now.

SJ – Thank you for spending time with me.

Joshua – You are most welcome!



SJ – I’m new to blogging but let me just say that I will do my best to faithfully enter words on my blog as they come to mind. My intention is to share wisdom garnered from my life, from my own soul memories and from my muse whom I have named Joshua.   Are we ready?

Joshua – Today we will talk about salvation and what it takes for your soul to reach God.

SJ – Remind me again of who “we” is, please.

Joshua – We are the positive spiritual angels and guides who are assigned to each and every one of you. Some of us have lived before on your planet and some have never walked the earth. 

SJ – Since you’re in the spirit world can you answer this for me: Who or what is God?

Joshua – I don’t know. He just is. He is light. He is energy. He is massive. You are all a part of him and your souls have memories of him. You were once a part of that energy but when the material world formed you wanted to explore the earth. To fully enjoy its fruits and sensations you had to become a solid form. However, you were not released into form to struggle alone.

SJ – Why were we allowed to release into form?

Joshua – You have always had free-will and that will never change. You released yourselves into the material world. You enjoy it but now you are not sure how to get back to God.

SJ – So are we stuck here permanently?

 Joshua – Jesus, the Buddha and others came here to show you the way. The way of course is love but you have to learn how to love again, unconditionally.

SJ – Sounds like we are going to have to work really hard for our salvation?

Joshua – Your salvation is simply that you exist. You exist in God’s image, in every possible way imaginable.

SJ – I was taught that I am sinful and born in shame?

Joshua – How could you be created in God’s image and be sinful and shameful? You came to the planet expecting to receive and give love the way it was received and given where you came from.

SJ – Talk about a rude awakening!

Joshua – You learned fear and self-hatred, didn’t you? Your salvation will come when you learn to love yourself. Love yourself as God’s most precious gift to mankind and conduct yourself as such. You are each a stepping stone for creating a better life on the planet. You are also each a stepping stone for consciousness development and for spiritual growth.

Remember you are all just energy taking on form. Your DNA is the creation of energy, energy that can transmit to other dimensions and vice versa.

SJ – Does that mean we could make our bodies dematerialize, like in Star Trek movies “beam me up Scottie”?

Joshua – Yes. Aren’t you excited about that?

SJ – Forgive me if I sound skeptical. I’m pretty sure I can’t do that.

Joshua – The human cell develops the qualities for physical survival by evolution – trial and error because they have memory. The human cells also know how to create enough positive energy to return the soul to its source.

SJ – So what’s stopping us from returning to our “source”?

Joshua – Did I mention you like it here, usually, or rather your ego likes it here. There are pleasures that you can only get by having a body. It’s your soul that wants to stay with the source. And so there is this never ending struggle between the soul, mind and body.

SJ – Are we talking about good and evil here?

Joshua – We are talking about negative and positive energy. Positive energy is light, where your souls want to stay. But your minds and bodies insist on weighing yourselves and the planet with negative energy. Negative energy created by the mind’s ego. Negative energy created because of the body’s need for survival and its fear that there are not enough resources to go around. And, of course, the ego created greed but that’s another topic.

SJ – And the soul only gets one shot at convincing the body to be a good little person so that it can go and stay in heaven?

Joshua – I was wondering when you were going to work that question in the conversation. You want to know about reincarnation don’t you?

SJ – How well you know me. I guess you want to go back to talking about energy.

Joshua – You and your God need the positive energy. The creation of positive energy feeds into the universe and helps it to expand.

SJ – One of the Big Bang theories, am I right?

Joshua – Based on the message we hear from God, the expansion theory is the correct one.

SJ – And what is that message from God?

Joshua – The message from God is: I am your creator; from my energy comes your energy. If my energy grows dim it is of your making. If you extinguish this light there will not be another for eons to come. Follow me to the bright light and you shall know bliss.

SJ – How can we mere mortals extinguish the light?

Joshua – You could extinguish it by increasing negative energy. Unfortunately you have a vested interest in keeping the balance between negative and positive going. 

SJ – Why?

Joshua – If the scale tips too far in the positive (or negative) the material world will cease to exist. Your soul’s expectation and hope is that it will exist eternally in the light of the Positive Energy force.

SJ – But those of us who enjoy all the pleasures on earth like food and sex; we want to keep it going?

Joshua – Yes you do, until the going gets tough.

SJ – You mean like war and famine. That’s when we really get “religion”.

Joshua – You said it, I didn’t. Your salvation will come when you realize that your ego is not the reason for your existence, it is for “the energy source” that you exist. You are your soul, not your body. It is your soul that matters here. And it is your soul that removes you from the planet whether you want to go or not.

SJ – You mean when my soul has had enough it’s “out-of-here” and my body goes to dust?

Joshua – Exactly, when your soul is ready to check-out, no amount of medicine or precaution is going to keep you here.

SJ – So the salvation we’re looking for will actually mean the end of physical time as we know it? We’re to expect an explosion of Positive Energy so powerful the Universe will expand because that is what the source wants?

Joshua – you’re making this sound like a bad thing. Would you rather sink into the black hole of negative energy?

SJ – Either way we will cease to exist?

Joshua – You will cease to exist in physical form but you are not your body, you are your soul. And your soul knows the bliss that awaits all of you; a bliss that your mind and ego have forced you to forget. However, every cell in your body remembers it which is why you repeatedly turn to religious leaders for help, or to addictions.

SJ – Like drugs, alcohol, food, sex etc.

Joshua – Yes, the list is long. Your body is trying to find the bliss its soul once knew and that its cells remember. However, as you know, bliss in the physical world is a fleeting thing. And sometimes the means to that end can be very destructive.

SJ – That should make the soul happy since its trying to go home.

Joshua – Not really. All of these addictions and the bad behaviors that come with them only create more negative energy; negative energy the soul must make amends for.

SJ – The next life on earth?

Joshua – Back to that are we. Maybe next time we’ll talk about reincarnation, or maybe not.

SJ – You can be sure I’ll be back to hear what you have to say.  Love you Joshua.

Joshua – Love you too Soundest Jewel.  And remember:

You are all just energy taking on form.